sometimes i think i should actually tell people whats going on in my mind. Other times i think it will just be a burden. i feel like such a supporting character. Like i matter too some people but most of the time i am not actually there. At the moment i can feel it. Like it happened before. The energy fading away like its being sucked away from me. The nightmares. Waking up and feeling like my dream was more vivid than real life. Holding onto my crucifix and bible when i wake up. Wondering if i go to sleep if i will wake up. If it happens again i don’t what to do.